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“I felt overwhelmed this week. Inundated with imagery and news that triggered emotions I was not immediately ready to deal with. I found myself reaching for a lifeline, a brief moment of reprieve to steady me before I inevitably returned to the news, the deep dive of personal reflection and to the protest.

Protesting reminded me that I wasn’t alone. The possibility that others might feel the way I do, even in the slightest, made me want to speak up and reach out, to provide something. I find both solace and power in music, so it’s in this that I have a resource to share. With the aim to build emotional strength and connections in this time of awakening, reflection and protest.

I wrote the lyrics to this song a while ago, originally thinking of love, family, betrayal and ultimately strength in adversity. It was only this week that I thought of this song again with everything going on. The emotion of the song still rang true but this time in a wider way, a bigger family, a deeper betrayal, a greater need for love.

It felt right to share this now and I hope it means something to you.”



it creeps over me
inside of me
it suffocates
i guess you’re winning now
you do the worst things
in the right ways

i guess you’re winning now.

what you are
who you are
right there
right here
stood in front of me

good intentions
won’t help u
i don’t trust
you do what you do
because of me

you poison all the roots of me
till I’m only
the stem
you poison all the roots of me
you see me waving all in the breeze
and your blowing again.

this love was meant to be
the lie started then.



released June 5, 2020
Written by Blane Muise
Produced by Arca


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